reconciliation of a sort

Red Head talked to me this past wednesday about the sleepover with his ex on saturday. it was awkward because i already knew about it and was just waiting for him to talk to me about it. it was awkward because we aren't really anything, yet at the same time there is sort of a silent understanding. and it was extremely painful to watch him apologize, be uncomfortable, and basically beat himself up about it in front of me. but at least he found the guts to do it. he told me something that i'm still not sure i should know about, something i'm not really certain i even have a right to be upset about.

so he redeemed himself.

sort of.

but this made the whole situation a lot more complicated. now i am hesitant about trusting him. now we had a "talk" way before there should have been anything resembling a talk. now things are said----things like liking and feelings and other stuff that i'm not really good with. now things could start to move really fast without taking appropriate time in the gray area. now he's even more reluctant to make moves than before because he feels like he made a mistake. now i'm worried about being in the middle of two people who i know. now i'm opening myself up and shit could get messy.

ach.

maybe i should just forget the whole thing.
but there's something about him...