come onnn

i do not get involved with people for a reason. especially those of the opposite sex. why? because they always take things a step too far. i break things off and they remain emotionally involved with me for a ridiculously long time.

i have had two serious relationships. not a lot of experience i know. but i've dipped my toes in the waters of committment. needless to say, i decided to get out of the water quickly. i've also ended both relationships. i didn't end them because i was cheated on, or because we fought a lot, or because of something dramatic. i ended them for the simple reason that i was dissatisfied. maybe it's because i'm a perfectionist, at least when it comes to who i date. but the relationships i've had, once the first glow had worn off, didn't feel quite...right.

so i ended them.
and hurt both of them.

i hurt for them. really. i hate causing anyone else pain. but it would have been much more painful to pretend to feel something that i didn't, and it might have damaged me beyond repair. i can't lie about about feelings. they're too important.

but although i hurt for them, i get extremely frustrated when they can't let me go. in this case, the subject under fire is my first ex. i've been broken up with him for two years. TWO YEARS. i understand it's hard. i understand he had a lot of insecurities.

but when i recently get a dramatic message (via facebook of all things. did i mention in addition to being an arrogant jackass, he's also a coward and drama queen? no?) that sounds like it came out of a movie script, i am understandably stunned that he is still so torn up about our breakup. because i'm over it. yet from what i can gather from his random message, he cannot even have a casual conversation with me through any medium because it makes him think about me. and thinking about me hurts. so i should just, and now i'm quoting, "Leave him be....please".

does anyone else find this to be as pathetic as i do?
he sounds like he modeled his message on the script of a badly written soap opera.

i don't feel bad for him. if he was genuinely hurting i would. but it's been two years. and i know he's enjoying the single life. the simple fact is my ex loves drama. and his ego still cannot recover from the fact that i was the one who ended things.

so bring on the girlish, catty, emotionally retarded facebook messages.

they amuse me.