The whole Best Friend Hookup thing is definitely over. he has not talked to me in two weeks now. i even made the executive decision to take him out of my phone, because i am not cool with drunk texting him in my weak moments, (always a bad, psycho/stupid girl move.) i just have one question. may i ask why guys, college guys in particular, pull this whole hot and cold thing? i am extremely confused with this whole phenomenon. you would think by now guys would be mature enough to just talk to us girls.
Help me to understand how a girl can hook up with a guy, not a serious or dangerous hookup by any means, hang out with him two times later that week, have a blast, joke around, and then have the same guy who was so interested stop talking to her completely? it's hurtful, people. it's confusing and immature and errodes at the self-esteem.
When i asked a friend of his what the deal was, or what he thought the deal was, with Best Friend, his response was "Best Friend Hookup has issues".
FUCK issues.
everyone has issues.
i can't even begin to list my own.
yet i can still function socially and with respect to other people.
i hate it when people hide behind the fact that they have "issues" or they're "damaged" and incapable of acting maturely. everyone is damaged and twisted inside. it's what happens when you live life. what counts is how you act despite that damage.
if he wasn't interested he should have just said so. it's really that simple. and that courteous. yeah i would have been a little taken aback but it's better than letting me wonder, and wallow in my own self-pity and doubt.
Because i'm better than that. i'm better than how he treats me. hell, i'm better than him if this is how he acts. i deserve the respect that he refuses to give me, or is just too damn stupid to give me. he should be able to recognize that i am a cool and unique person, one who wasn't going to freak out on him or demand impossible things.
obviously he didn't know me at all. which is sad considering we were best friends at one point. i'm also upset with the fact that maybe i didn't know the person he was either. so we both learned something from this little episode. i've learned that i don't need that type of shit anymore from guys. i have no tolerance for it, and it's a waste of my time. i hope he eventually figures out what he wants, and doesn't go through the rest of life emotionally farting on people.
and i'm still petty enough to hope that he regrets this missed opportunity like hell.
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