a kick in the ass...but in a good way

as this writer has kindly pointed out, i've been a bit whiny lately.

alright, alright....a LOT whiny.

while i'm getting depressed because of graduation, drama, and all the sickeningly lovely couples that seem to be popping out of the bushes left and right, my state of mind---is mostly my fault. i've let myself become stuck in a rut. i'm unmotivated because i don't motivate myself. i'm tired because i choose to be irresponsible. and i'm alone because i'm afraid to put myself out there and look like a fool. what i didn't realize was that i was already being a fool.

spring has arrived and in addition to doing some literal spring cleaning, maybe it's the perfect time to figuratively spring clean, well, myself. throw out the old insecurities, step outside of the box. i've been fooling myself into thinking that i've done everything i could to get results in my life, specifically my love life.

in reality, i've just been hiding. from new experiences, new situations, new feelings, new guys. ive been content to remain within my persona of "cool chick/drinking buddy" without forcing people to look beyond that into a person who consists of not only the drinking buddy, but so much more.

so time to grab the bull by the horns.



or maybe in the case...the guy by the balls.