we have a stage 5 clinger

it's been a crazy couple of days. i handed in a 20 page paper, took a couple finals, got wasted, and had a major freak-out in the boy department.

that's right.
Red Head is getting real serious.

the other day, i was complaining about how no one has the robin williams stand-up. i've been wanting to watch it for forever, but unfortunately the next day i had to study for a final. i spent all day at the library, only to come home around 9 and find a wrapped present on my desk with the note, "Just thought you could use some cheering up". The present turned out to be....you guessed it....the robin williams stand-up dvd.

He went out and bought the damn thing.
and. wrapped. it.

for the first five seconds my insides went all mushy, but then i remembered an important fact. i do not have a boyfriend. nor do i want one in the near future. not even Red Head.

things escalated with Red Head acting very affectionate in public over the next couple days, kissing me goodnight, and stopping up randomly. things reached a head when, wasted one night, he actually cried in front of me. c-r-i-e-d. with tears.

warning. warning.

let me make something clear.
i am cold and dead inside.
therefore excessive emotion makes me extremely uncomfortable.
actually it makes me run for the hills like i'm being pursued by the hounds of hell.

i can't be there for Red Head right now. that poor boy is wearing his heart on his sleeve. and in turn he's forcing things on me that i don't want, need, or am even close to being ready for. christmas break is coming at the perfect time. i can feel myself beginning to suffocate.

where the hell do i find these guys?